You pass many people in a day. And as you pass you notice something about them. You notice if they are happy, sad, joyful, and the like. But what is it about that person who looks like they have just won a million dollars? They are very joyful, but why? Is it becuase of a high in there day or maybe a really great thing happened to them? You really don't know. But did you ever think people do the same thing to you? They watch and pass you. Do you look like you have hit the jackpot? Do you look happy at all? Do you even care anymore about people? Do you realize they are really there?

                Some days I feel like the people who should look like the happiest people in the world are the ones with the worst attitudes or the meanest people. But why, why aren't they happy? Because they know the Lord! There life has meaning! There is a purpose for them to live and to share his love towards others! But for some reason they don't share and don't show that they care and love everyone. Why? This question still boggles my mind. Things could be worse and more than that much worse. But why don't they realize that and change the way they are? People are suffering all around us. So why not just try to reach out? Why don't we, as christians try to reach out and touch someone?

        "... This is my offering, dear Lord, this is my offering to you God...."

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                Have you ever felt so awful you were sick? You were shaking in your seat and you feel you have let everyone down? You have made mistakes upon mistakes and you want to blame others, but somehow you realize it is all your fault. You have failed. You are a nobody. You want to just give up and stop trying. Everything you are trying to do is failing and you get frustrated easily. You feel like everyone is against you and you want to just turn and be mad at yourself. Have you ever felt like you weren't good enough? For anything, for anyone, for any purpose. You just can't see through it all, but yet in the dark there shines a light, and that is the light of Jesus Christ. You realize the mistakes, the faults, and you repent surrender your life to him. You surrender because you have just realized he is more powerful than you will ever be and you NEED him! You turn on your radio and put in a old cd and there it is....the truth for which you were seeking. You are still shaking, but this time, in awe of the Lord and his message to you and for you. Do you ever have those days, where you just wake up and say " you are holy!", " how could I have forgotten"? You can feel God in your life and you know that you do have a purpose. You do matter and there are people who love you. There are people you have let down but all will be well. One day, when we are in the house of the Lord! Nothing else matters, just HIM and HIM alone! Finally you see through the storm and you know that you can overcome the world! Then you go to bed and remember and reflect on how you were yesterday and the day before. You can tell you are growing and God is teaching through your life. And then you go on to the next day and you strive to be more like Him. You forget about your past and live for your future. Thank you God!

"How many times have I turned away?
The number is the same, as the sand on the shore.
And every time, you have taken me back,
And now I pray you do it once more.
Please take from me my life,
when I don't have the strength to give it away to you.
Please take from me my life,
when I don't have the strength to give it away to you, Jesus.
And how many times have I gone astray?
The number is the same as the stars in the sky.
And every time, you've taken me back,
And now I pray you do it tonight.
 Please take from me my life,
 when I don't have the strength to give it away to you.
Please take from me my life,
when I don't have the strength to give it away to you, Jesus.
Please take from me my life,
when I don't have the strength to give it away to you.
Please take from me my life,
when I don't have the strength to give it away to you, Jesus.
To give it away to you, Jesus.
To give it away to you Jesus.

I miss Nick!!!

   Sometimes, don't you just wish you could hate people, because it would make life easier? So today, I feel like hating a whole lot of people! Why did God even put them here with me? I believe he has put them here to teach me. And yes I am learning, but there is nothing I hate more than selfish people who hurt other peoples feelings. But then it can get even worse, because sometimes they don't even realize they have hurt you. So all those people out there who don't think I know what you say about me or behind my back, one day you will realize you were wrong. And all those people obsorbed in your own world to take time out of your pathetic lives here on earth to ask someone how they are doing or how their day is going, I pity you. I pity myself. I hate selfishness, but then again that would be why God gave this gift to us. Yes I said gift, because God gave it to us that one day, we may realize in every way we are a sinner and selfishness is a sin and we all commit it. One day, we will learn as we are graced with the presence of God. But can people honestly not care that much about you to ask, or to think, or to pray, or to just let God take their life? Or to stop talking about people when they can hear you and you know you are being mean and doing it for a purpose. Why are we like that? Why are we always obsorbed in ourselves and not others? God has told us to be more like him and most christians at least realize this and try to become more like him. But do we get lost in ourselves along the way? And do we ever reach the point of caring about others more than ourselves and to also care enough about ourselves to strive to be more like Christ? I have hope that everyone one day may understand the simple words in life like " hi" or       " how are you". How are we supposed to become united if we don't talk, or care, or fellowship with new friends and old? One day we will realize and it will be a glorious day! Oh how I long for that day! Just letting everyone know that I want you to please forgive me for being selfish and in the same respect, I will forgive you. Just next time, you don't think you are being heard, or you want to say something mean, just think about it and don't do it. Because it can hurt and leave scars. And next time, you feel wrapped up in yourself talk to someone who needs it, reach out to others. You never know what God will do with that person. Have a blessed week everyone and try something new -- like thinking about others! I am trying it and I will let everyone know how it goes!

         "........what hurts the most........"

            Please just keep me in your thoughts and prayers this week.

          ...."I guess it's gonna have to hurt, I guess I'm gonna have to cry"........